Monday, February 1, 2010
Ok...ok...this starting of February...truthfully speaking...SUX. Like damn sux...Problems kept surfacing again and again and again...Seriously...am i still living a life of a child? Definate...NO !!!...So pissed off...by my own life...I am not steel...I am a living flesh and body.Ok...nvm...someone has to be the unfair one...
Can i just like...REST!!...I am tired of this...damn tired...You ever wonder why porky behaves like a mad guy?It isn't because i want to...I am more.....emo(i guess)...in the inside of me.If i ever don't find a chance to smile,i would eventually break down...
You all just think it doesn't matter to me...True...It don't matter,i have been on to things you all have let go..And fought it for you...and excalty how many were grateful? 10%...Better nothing...the other 90% don't even care not even near to grateful.I am starting to feel that what my POA teacher said are correct.."Why should i bother if you already given up on yourself?"....I guess i am just stupid...Once i am to considerate,people push the blame on me...All this little things are adding up my burdens...You think i don't cry?..I would love to cry like a annoying bitch...But if i cry...others will fall...So excaltly should i do?...
Why am i different?....Am i too native?...i just don't understand what you all do.I am STUPID i admit,at least i did not lie to myself...What ever i done,most importantly to me.
It Felt Right,I not longer doubt my heart,but what has gone wrong?...why?...Why i can't i be back the kid i was 6 years ago...Why,must my life force me to become like this...
Nvm...Nvm everything about my life...Nvm...Cannot do.Also must do.Still cannot do.What to do?.NVM.But still cannot do =.= . FUCK LARH !! ...Just put the blame on me...that will do...I bet i am as busy as obama...This kind of black bastard...so smart larh!!!....haiz...
How i wish Obama was here to answer my questions...... =(
For now...Maybe i should just put away studies...and solve every problems one step at a time...
Labels: God ain't helping me? then i will just help myself...
Monday, February 01, 2010
