Hello!! =D Today i am not gonna blog about life...I found my life in a lyrics,i had the song all along...but i didn't know what it meant.Cause it is in japanese =.= Then i suddenly came across the translated version 0_0 I realized...It was as if it was describing me...

I closed my eyes and could see a faint light
Like a foolish dreamer, I reached out to grab it

I can’t see my outstretched hand
With my eyes closed and the way is dark
It’s so far away that it becomes a distant blur

Somehow I’m still living my life and haven’t quit on myself yet
I wouldn’t mind crying a lot if I could just smile for once

I’ll resist my fate with all I’ve got
Only I have the right
To judge what’s correct or incorrect

Sailing day, take the helm
The foolish dreamer raised sail without waiting for dawn to come

The amazed believer who even loved countless danger
And suspense ambushed the enemy

The light I could see before my open eyes
Fills my empty heart with a reason

Then I give myself a push in the back once more
You lose a lot just to gain one single thing

I’ll prove that I exist with all I’ve got
All my faults and mistakes are treasures, valuable only to me

Sailing day, take the helm
The amazed believer goes to gather sadness and hopelessness

Everyone sets sail on their own ship
The light each one sees is from a lighthouse

That’s right, I still have my own soul
Of course just to live for one second
You have to always put your life on the line

I’ll prove that I exist with all I’ve got
All my defeats and regrets are treasures, valuable only to me

Sailing day, take the helm
The amazed believer goes to gather days full of adventure

I’ll resist my fate with all I’ve got
The lighthouse that shines only for me will never go dark

Sailing day, take the helm
The foolish dreamer happily raised sail in the middle of a storm

Everyone’s a believer

An eternal dreamer

Labels: A Foolish Dreamer...Will dreams come true?

Porky has been MIA...But. YES!! PORKY IS BACK !! if not i wouldn't be here .____. Anyway! He is not only back! BUT,BACK IN ACTION 0_0 And YES !!! It's Porky BACK-TO-BACK...ok...maybe it doesn't make sense .____. But...My back is stuck on my back...In other words,Back-to-back 0.o right? Yeah...So i was right =D And yeah...back in what? Blogging... .____.

Nothing to blog...yeah yeah...i know.......ok...maybe i don't .OK! Saturday I watched Pussy Jackson and the Pussy Thief 0.o Not bad...But the story very quick...Ok...Ep 37219 finshed.

Let's skip Ep 37220 cause nothing much...Oh...My mom forced me to buy a bag 0.o Look very tall .____. THE END !

Ep 37221
Part 1
Errr...Still at computer at home...Online till 3 playing Viwawa =D so fun...Next...School !!! Blah blah blah...thinking day...I was a scout too in my primary school.Then ya da ya da ya...Then nothing happened...Oh! last period about CDL...Read a article about...12-year-old girl girl consent in getting bang by 4 boy boy 0.o The girl close the door.Then Raped them all =O 0.o Not safe for little boys like me...

Part 2
Wushu !! La~la~la~ same old thing...training then today i got raped =O Two girls...errr...Shorter then Nasty,Taller then my bag with itchy fingers...I got rape .___. They raped my shoes...Then my phone...Then i threatened to rape them 0.o But lost in the end =.= WALAO! Alot of RIA today... Rape-ing In Action...So i shall declare! This week is the week of RAPE !!! =.=

Labels: I got raped T^T

HELLO! Happy you know what and Talentines days....It's the day where the shops on the streets is closed and people stock their food supplies and awaits the arrival of intruders to collect tax via AngBao...Chinese New Year =D Like having war or conflict like that 0.o

This year new year wasn't as fun 0_0 But also very LOL.My father dancing at other people home HA! Walao =.= then my 2nd Uncle join in...dancing with the little boy and girl =.= But i never dance 0.o sit there lol only...

Very sian leh...rot infront computer...and just today.Almost "liu be xiu" ...Walao TA MA DE,my friends wear Qi Pao almost faint 0_0 ...Aiya anyway very sian larh..This new year very free -,- AngBao money also less liao...No fun =/

Today,go out again =D dunno do what...just go out 0.o bowling...steamboat or something. 0.o K,me do other stuffs...nothing to blog...I force myself de.

Happy whatever it is... 0.o -Porky

Labels: This time so sian ._____.

I am not gonna say HI today... =.= I am just gonna borrow my POA teacher's line...

"I AM VERY PISSED OFF WITH YOU !!!"

Because yes!!! Today is the Week of Pissed...RAWR!!! Sian...I really don't want to care about all those problems anymore.But you just pissed me off...I no mood to do anything,plus,I am very tired =/ Not physical...Mentally.Really man...I have never felt o pissed in my life,it is OK to do the wrong thing..But it is not OK to just leave it like that,without even telling...So pissed sia...why? you think is OKTO arh? =.=

DAMN ME!!!...I cannot control my stupid brain...It is programmed to say or do stupid things.I can't even get angry properly =/ Grrr...Pissed with myself liao larh..

Nvm....I dun want talk about unhappy stuffs liao...People all now having problems,damn it.Ok...Seperate all the Pissy Stuffs (the adjective for piss. LOL,A NEW WORD!!! 0.o) anyway most importantly...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIA QI !!!
Also to those who birthday is also around this time Eg.Kevin,Benny...so on

Hmmmm...let's talk about.Porky's Adventures to find a present...LOL.K,hmmmm...It all started after wushu...yeah yeah,a very pissed day even for porky...Ok aside of those things...Me go hougang point wanting to find a present 0.o Then,the ice-cream started attrating me 0_0 *Resisted* Then,i asked Jia wen if she got coloured paper.Then she say have =D i was so happy...Until...The paper was as long as my finger. =.= Damn it !

Then go NTUC,played relay umbrella up the elevator.Then we went to the soft toys corner...then anyhow touch...Jia wen,Jia Jun and lionel with ME of course =D Fiddling the soft toys...Touched...Molested...Raped...some were even exposed..I felt sorry for them =.= Next,no no no...No next.Just nothing was found...Then,went to some bookstore...Brought coloured paper? 0.o Yeah,just that there was no colour =.= Sian-ed...Then i got seperated with them and decided to head to compass point to find.

Went to bus stop...Not very long,two bus came...159 and 109 so i went up the 159 caused the numbers looked nicer to me...Then... =.= Walao crowd like hell,no really...I saw Jun han too 0.o Sia larh...Got 1 weird uncle,i dunno what happened to him 0_0 but are not coming out of his mouth.Then like...How should i put it...Crowd Control LOL...Then made us squeezed and squeezed =.= Then,Jun han say i very emo .____. ok maybe so...It is better than throwing tantrums.He told me something like...

"For every problem there is a solution."
Porky:"But,some problems cannot be solved and has to be ended by a conclusion"
"Yup...Every problem have a conclusion...k g2g BB"

Why didn't i realized 0.o ...Every problem has conclusions,that gave me an idea 0.o THANKS BITCH!!! But there are still problems that ain't so easy...cause it will never end =.= Ok...Whatever...After deep thoughts i reached compass point...Go B1...Nope...Nothing....Then i go Watsons.Jia wen said there got Daisy =.= ...Then the M&M caught my attention *Run away* ...K,there was no daisy in the store =.= WALAO...Then go Action city...nope...Go mini toon,then...The gummy bears started saying HI 0_0 I couldn't resist...So i brought them...NO!!!!!! I didn't get any presents T^T just gummies...

Suddenly,i heard a sound of a Duck at the counter...And that's how i found my present =D THE END !!!

ok...maybe not my present...BUT I FOUND IT ! So it is mine...indirectly? 0.o

-Porky

Labels: The week of Pissed...

K,end of the first week of the month...Ya.Just suck... =/ On a homework spree now...too busy.

Now i am just,acting normal infront of people... 0_0 quite unstable mood now...Haiz...Dunno what to say sia... =.= Only have a lot to complain..

Did i actually took up so much responsibility? =.= I have thought about it...if i were to die,there will be like...1 Mountain of problems left undone 0.o WHERE THE HELL DID I DO TO PICK UP SO MUCH PROBLEMS SIA!!!! ...thinking about it again...50% of the problems are what u all have let go that i chose to hold on to...

Was it actually right or wrong to do that? 0.o It's really felt right to me...haiz...Porky...What are you going to become?

Labels: Problems that cannot be solved have to be ended by a conclusion

No mood sia...no mood...just empty inside ._____. I will just fill myself with laughter...at least it made me feel better

Labels: Am i causing trouble?Or am i attracting them?

Ok...ok...this starting of February...truthfully speaking...SUX. Like damn sux...Problems kept surfacing again and again and again...Seriously...am i still living a life of a child? Definate...NO !!!...So pissed off...by my own life...I am not steel...I am a living flesh and body.Ok...nvm...someone has to be the unfair one...

Can i just like...REST!!...I am tired of this...damn tired...You ever wonder why porky behaves like a mad guy?It isn't because i want to...I am more.....emo(i guess)...in the inside of me.If i ever don't find a chance to smile,i would eventually break down...

You all just think it doesn't matter to me...True...It don't matter,i have been on to things you all have let go..And fought it for you...and excalty how many were grateful? 10%...Better nothing...the other 90% don't even care not even near to grateful.I am starting to feel that what my POA teacher said are correct.."Why should i bother if you already given up on yourself?"....I guess i am just stupid...Once i am to considerate,people push the blame on me...All this little things are adding up my burdens...You think i don't cry?..I would love to cry like a annoying bitch...But if i cry...others will fall...So excaltly should i do?...

Why am i different?....Am i too native?...i just don't understand what you all do.I am STUPID i admit,at least i did not lie to myself...What ever i done,most importantly to me.It Felt Right,I not longer doubt my heart,but what has gone wrong?...why?...Why i can't i be back the kid i was 6 years ago...Why,must my life force me to become like this...

Nvm...Nvm everything about my life...Nvm...Cannot do.Also must do.Still cannot do.What to do?.NVM.But still cannot do =.= . FUCK LARH !! ...Just put the blame on me...that will do...I bet i am as busy as obama...This kind of black bastard...so smart larh!!!....haiz...

How i wish Obama was here to answer my questions...... =(

For now...Maybe i should just put away studies...and solve every problems one step at a time...

Labels: God ain't helping me? then i will just help myself...