arshad,my those "stuffs" have stop because of you... U really make me feel bad,i have already lost my best buddy.. I cant lose YOU.. U make me feel bad dude!! i dunno why,but *sigh*

I could do something to save my buddy,but i didn't.. the same case as you,i really afraid you would end up the same.. U wouldn't let me help you,i am so pisst off.. DO U UNDERSTAND??i can't lose u,i can't lose any of my friends NOW.. You people are the one who put this smile on my face!!

I feel so bad that i actually punched myself,why am i so useless!!! i can't do a simple thing,I cant lead you to happiness,joy and laughter..U are putting a metal wall between you and ME..No matter how hard i try to smash it open,it is not effective.. I only can see you suffering on each everyday,I can't reach out to U and help you... Open this door,without anyone of you guys i will just be a wandering zombie.

I am trying my best to help U,you just push me away.But i am not giving up yet not until u can regain ur hope back!!! Please,let me help u.. I am feeling worse each everyday day looking at you.. ARSHAD!!,please,let me help u.. It is like a poison to me..

TAG please,i am ready for this final answer.. U may just be my potion to relieve my pain..IT IS NOT JUST YOU THAT IS SUFFERING,IT IS US...